I cannot believe it’s been a week. It felt like an eternity and 10 seconds at the same time. It is precisely 7 days, almost to the minute, that you left us. The pain is so overwhelming. It’s all I can think about. I’ve tried distracting myself, but focusing on anything else is hard.
It’s Molly’s birthday today. She is also a wreck. We are trying to be strong for each other, but you supported us both. You kept both of us above water. Lilli and Katja went to see you at the German funeral home to approve their work before they could send you home. It must have been so difficult for them to see you without a warm smile on your face. I wish I could have been there to see you and support them.
Why does the world keep moving on when mine has come to a grinding halt? I can’t see the path forward without you.
Liam asked Kimbre if it was his fault you died. He thought he stressed you too much when he was a bad listener. I didn’t know my heart could break more, yet it has. Felicity asked if she could help me be Santa this year, so I didn’t have to do it alone. The tears don’t stop—uncontrollable sobbing. I know you’re at peace and pain-free, but your absence is so painful. You are the absolute love of my life and the greatest friend I’ve ever known. Words will never be able to do justice to how you made me feel and changed my life. I miss you. I yearn for you.